It's getting closer.................

 Well it is almost the end of winter. Just 2 more days! We can soon say goodbye to the grey clouds  and the rainy days and freezing cold nights. Bye bye winter. Spring is in the air, which means I will soon be another year older! We have already had a hint, a splash of warm sun. BLISS! I have so missed the warmth on my face.

This year I will be 44. I am not freaked out about my age. It is just a number, and I really have more important things to worry about than turning 44. Let's face it, we can't change it so why fight it. 

I am more concerned over the fact that with the sun I will soon need to wear 3/4 pants, and open toed shoes, which means these hairy legs will need a trim, and my poor feet will need a well deserved pick me up. So I think I shall treat myself to a day at the beauty shop. Leg wax, as shaving is getting a little tricky for me now, and a deluxe pedicure with some brightly coloured nail polish. That way when I look down I shall be able to see my pretty toes wiggling back at me.


Hubby has hinted on getting me my own Tablet. I wasn't thrilled at first. He has one. A nice one. But apart from reading my books on it, I don't really use it. Well it is very hard to get it off him. I can only really play with it when he is at work. He even takes it to the loo with him! REALLY! The good old magazine has now been super seeded with modern technology. Honestly what is up with men and reading while they poop? 


My daughter told me to stop acting like an 'OLD PERSON' . Nice hey. I'll be honest I think I would rather my own laptop. Just cause I feel more confident, and I can play farmville on one of those. But I am warming to the idea of having a computer/iPod/camera all in one, as all these other things I own have been either taken over or broken by other members of this house old. It will be ALL MINE. I like that idea too. I will just need to learn how to use the darn thing. So I hope he doesn't change his mind and buy me slippers, as I am now a bit excited at the thought of having something new and shiny. I will need a crash course on how to use it though........cause I'm old............

I did put forward the idea that money could be better spent on a new washing machine, and vac, as ours are getting on and I fear their days are numbered, but hubby was not amused by my lack of selfishness. He is right, please do not tell him I said that, it is my birthday, and I do deserve something just for me. He thinks once I get used to it I will love it. Maybe? Probably.... I think he is just more excited at the though of using Skype with  me. We both have never done it, and he finds  the thought of us both sat together Skyping very funny. Boys and their toys! LOL We shall see. I will be able to talk to it, and it will write what I say, so that will be a bit of fun.  Stay tuned.

The other day at work  I had a customer pat  me on the belly and ask.....

 "WHAT'S GOING ON HERE THEN? EVERY TIME I SEE YOU YOU LOOK BIGGER!"

I was so sad. I felt utterly FAT. I have actually lost a tiny bit, and was feeling really good about that, (forget the fact that gastric flu helped) but in that moment it all went out the window. I came home and needed a huge hug from hubby. Reassurance to my wounded self confidence. I posted on face book too, and I was overwhelmed by the sweet and wonderful support messages. It really picked up my mood, which was sadly sliding down into a sad depression. So for that I was really grateful. Sometimes you just need to hear it hey.

My weight is something I have struggled with for many years. I have PCOS, which makes loosing weight very hard. I actually do not eat that much junk, occasional pizza night, the odd treat if I have coffee with friends which is very rare these days, and my only naughty is chocolate  dark chocolate a few squares after dinner. Well life without chocolate is life without living, and I can't have a lack of sex and no chocolate....that is just not even worth thinking about. But my size would suggest otherwise. Since my back injury I have gained 20 kgs. I can't exercise like I once did, and it has just turned me into an Easter Egg on legs!


After the pick me up from hubby and my sweet friends on facebook, I told myself to not let the opinions of others become my truths. There is just more of me to love, and if hubby still loves me as I am well that is all that really matters yes?

Father's Day this weekend here in Australia, and the boys have come home with their father's day stall gifts. I have added to it with some chocolates. Most likely he will spend the whole day asleep. So I plan to take the kids and go shopping for some new pots and pans. He isn't really too fussed on the day, and it will be a fantastic 25 degrees so I do not wish to be stuck at home with Child 3 driving me utterly crazy.


So my gift to hubby will be a quiet house for a few hours. That has to be OK right? I will celebrate it with retail therapy, so fingers crossed I am having a good back day.


I have asked if we could go on a date  for my birthday too. Too greedy, a tablet and a date? 

NO..........

After all he still owes me a date. He hurt his back last time remember , and that in turn hurt mine and we had that 8 weeks of utter yucky. Well we have not been out since, that was APRIL, so I think my birthday is a good excuse as any to force him to actually go to bed at night and be awake during the day, and actually spend some QT time with me. 

I stay up late, and that is how we spend time, but it  really isn't ideal, although hubby finds it ideal for him.  

We are working on ways to make it better, and he is taking the boys to school on my days off or late starts so I can sleep in. So I can stay up, and not worry that I wont get enough sleep. It is for now the best way to catch up. 



Wishing you all a HAPPY SAFE WEEKEND.....keep smiling...and for heaven sake if you can't say anything nice just don't say anything at all.

Winter will soon be over.....

I AM SICK......finally winter has caught up with me and I caught the bug.

I do think maybe I caught this from a girl at work, for the past 2 weeks she has come to work sick, going home a few times, but showing up again the next day still SICK. 

I wasn't feeling 100% Wednesday. Not sick, just not right. Thursday morning I woke up feeling less than spectacular, but you know how it is, you man up and hope that you snap out of in a few hours.

Nope! Not this time. Just an hour into my shift, and I realised that I really should not have left the house. I started feeling really sick. I mean puke sick... so they sent me home. THANK YOU!

I did however take my sorry butt to the doctors. I walk in and the receptionist takes one look at me and says, and I quote "YOU DON'T LOOK REAL GOOD!"

No shit, I am here to see a doctor because I am just peachy???

Well I didn't realise that I actually looked as bad as I felt. Always good to know.

Doctor takes one look at me, shoots off a few questions, to which I scored full marks, and matter of fact like  writes me off work for the next 3 days, and tells me to go home curl up and die.

GASTRO FLU! 

So that is exactly what I did, well after stopping off at the shops to get ONIONS, and hot chips and chicken for dinner for the family. Chicken for my Chicken Broth, and onions to rid me of this VIRUS.

I swear it is working. I should be really sick right now, but I am no where near what I should be, so I say it is working well. All I can smell is ONION, but between the broth, laced with Garlic, and my onions, things are looking up. 

I am still weak and tired, but all the wanting to vomit, and tummy pains have all gone.

Now if I could just make myself look less icky......

Man I look a mess.....

Grey hair roots....black panda eyes.....runny nose....baggy track pants, and fluffy slippers.......

OH YEAH I'M SO HOT RIGHT NOW!

One could consider all 3. Just one snag...........I look and feel like utter cactus.... not to mention that I am probably contagious! Damn there is always something...........kids......cats.........illness..........random people at your door..... lol

Letting Hubby sleep because he was a sweet heart and allowed me to stay in bed this morning cause I'm under the weather, so I am picking the kids up from school, in my glam slippers, just as well I am staying in the car.....but I have no energy to cook, so would Macca's drive through after school make me a bad mother? 

HELL NO, The boys think I am AWESOME!

I did have the most nicest shower today though. HOT, un-rushed, and no kids ! There is nothing like that feeling of CLEAN, when you have been sick all night.

Well I hope by this time Saturday I will be fighting fit again. 

Winter almost over, just 2 more weeks.....SUN... SUN... SUN...PLEASE I NEED YOU!

So stay warm, dry, and keep those onions handy. 

ps: My last post didn't work it appears....I had heaps of issues just trying to upload it. Error messages, and all. Then it worked...but I got a reply from Don giving me a heads up that the pictures didn't work. Thanks Don. So I have removed it.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

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I've got my movie on.....

Love makes the world go round, well don't you think? 

I have had an interesting week so far. I have had a marriage proposal of sorts. I have an older man who comes shopping each week, and yesterday he asked if I had a good man in my life. After telling him I did in fact have such a man, he told me that if things didn't work out, I would always have a place at his house. He said to tell my hubby that " He is one lucky man, because women like me a rare, and if I was his wife I he would kiss me all over everyday and treat me like a queen" Well nice to know hey. Hubby was a bit annoyed, as last week another man said something similar, and I was also kissed on the cheek. I tell you these older males are very cheeky indeed. Nice for the old ego though. Hubby's response was " If I see him I will ask him if he can run 5 km, and do 100 push ups? Then tell him that you require an orgasm every time you have sex. If he can't do that then he is no match for you!" LOL 

I think he needed to reassert his manhood. Truth is no man could come close to my hubby. He is all I need, even if occasionally I need him more than I currently get. 

The other top stories is that Child one had a date Sunday with a new man....stay tuned...I am not thrilled....I think she needs some time to just be her...sort out her life....learn to be herself on her own.....meeting him was awkward. He dropped her off and stayed for 2 hours. Child 3 was on to him like the show off he is, and I am really shy at first with new people, so the conversation was strained pretty much after the politeness was over, as he is the same around new people. I have decided to tell her that she can't bring home boys any more unless she is full on in love and is sure that he is the one.... it is too hard. This one seems nice, older than the last....we shall see???

Now Movies.............

If you want to watch a sweet film about growing up, and how boys and girls think, this one's just wonderful. Wholesome good old fashioned family movie night in. Very sweet, and many lessons to be learned about judging people, and standing up for yourself. Just grab a copy and watch. Awesome.

Quirky love story. He is a writer with writers block. He is famous as he wrote a best seller at 19, and now feels the pressure of the next book. He has a dream about this girl, and the next day he writes about her. What happens is the girl of his story becomes real. He meets her, and then everything he writes she is, and does. Men around the world would sell their souls for this, but as you will see, it isn't as wonderful as you might think. Sweet ending. Well worth a look. 

This is so funny, and utterly frustrating for a woman to watch. I just wanted to hit the hubby in the head with a fry pan most of the movie. It is a super look into how lack of communication can kill a loving relationship dead. She needs LOVE, and he thinks all is just fine as is. In the end they, after some funny, and some very hard truths, they rediscover their LOVE and it is just beautiful. The blow job in the movie theatre is just devastating. lol

I saved the best till last. Not your typical Zombie flick. This one is witty, and funny, and has you giggling. It is also so very touching, and carry's with it a deeper message for us all about people, and our society, and most importantly  LOVE.

Hubby cried at the end of this one. Now that's saying something. 

The young girl lead is also a South Australian too. She had a rough start to life, also worked in Hungry Jacks in Rundle Mall. How's that for a bit of trivia.

Not much else to tell. Got the new stove...it is basic as they come, no oven light or oven timer, but it does the job, so all good. Tax done for another year too, always glad to  put that one behind me, and the extra cash is nice, although not as much back as I was hoping for, but we didn't have to pay so that is good. Dentist check up done, and thankfully all good there too.

Wishing you all a great week.

HUGS, and remember to tell someone you LOVE them today. Now off you go...tell them.....!

Something that made me smile.................

Today hubby told me that when he hears this song he thinks of me and it makes him tear up sometimes. I am all a gushy mush right now. I thought I better jot it down so that I will always remember it. When I feel crabby next time remind me about this song OK. 

Train - If It's Love Lyrics

Artist: Train

Album: Save Me San Francisco

Genre: Rock

While everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it, I'm not in it to win it
And there's a thousand ways you can skin it

My feet have been on the floor flat like an idle singer
Remember winger, I digress
I confess you are the best thing in my life

But I'm afraid when I hear stories about a husband and wife
There's no happy endings, no Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me

If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever

And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together

Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me

Took a loan on a house I own
Can't be a queen bee without a bee throne
I wanna buy you everything except cologne 'cause it's poison

We can travel to Spain where the rain falls
Mainly on the plain side and sing
'Cause it is we can laugh, we can sing
Have ten kids and give them everything

Hold our cell phones up in the air
And just be glad that we made it here alive
On a spinning ball in the middle of space
I love you from your toes to your face

If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever

And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together

Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me

You can move in, I won't ask where you've been
'Cause everybody has a past
When we're older we'll do it all over again

When everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it, I'm not in it to win it
I'm in it for you

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
Then the rest is just whenever

If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better

And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together

Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me

Feeling Positive...........

It's been a long day, started a 5 am and pretty much has been non stop. Work, shopping, washing, cooking, house work, all the usual mummy stuff. The last few weeks have been pretty much a run-a-thon of same day, same old things. Just very busy. I just had to stop and take stock of all the good in-between stuff, that happens in the busy.

But this week even though it has had it's up's and downs...down's mainly work related bullshit, but it was sorted quickly to which I was grateful for. I was more annoyed that this lady I bent over backwards for to help, she wrote in and accused me of not wanting to help her.

Utter bullocks, and the camera footage proves it, plus the fact that I apparently I get weekly positive comments on my customer service, to which I never hear about by the way, but the first bad one, which actually had not named me, but the boss felt the need to go through a weeks worth of camera footage to find out, she halls me in her office and asks me to explain. I was pretty pissed off. Later she attempted to say sorry in her way, after checking through my story, and matching it with footage, and other staff witnesses.

HONESTLY....it's ME! When am I EVER MEAN to my CUSTOMERS. It was totally laughable. I was guttered she did write such a thing...some people just like to complain. She was most likely hoping to get a gift voucher or something? I was 30 mins late home because of her, and it was service with a smile all the way. How can people lie like that? That hurt most of all. It left me wondering what other people say about me, as I have found out they do, all the time, and I never get told a thing about those ones, you know the GOOD STORIES! 


But I do not want to dwell on that...or my HUGE Electric bill...OUCH! Thank goodness for credit cards!

I want to focus on what is good. On what makes me happy, and this week I had a few things to be very happy about.

1. We got our lease renewal. Yeah, doing the happy dance.
2. They didn't put the rent up. Utterly unheard of and a first for us.
3. We are finally after 12 months getting a new stove, maybe in as little as a week.
4. This makes the longest home we have ever lived in, in our whole married life together.
5. Child 3 gets his new speech teacher this Monday to start one on one teaching with him, every Monday fortnight. He needs all the help he can get, and this will really help his reading and writing along.
6. Child 1 is doing really well at TAFE.
7. Child 2 is learning his fractions now that mummy and daddy have been making him do homework every night after school.
8. Child 2 stayed in drama class, which he loves, but was going to drop out of because of a boy at school who gives him a hard time sometimes who is also going to drama. Child 3 wants to go too, so he is attending bring a friend along night to see how he goes. I think it will be good for him too.
9. Hubby and I can still find moments in each day to laugh, hug, smile, and share.
10. That wee after your shift has ended, and you have been hanging on for about 2 hours.........BLISS! Best wee of the day that one.
11. A snug warm bed, heaven right.
12. New Willy Wonka Chocolate...Triple choc ripple something....just try it...YUM!
13. A Hug from my kids, for no reason.
14. A clean sink free of dirty dishes.
15. All the washing done.
16. Being flirted with at work today by a man I wasn't even serving. He asked me if there was a man in my life I was giving any trouble to? I laughed and said yes. Then he said that I was gorgeous  and he (hubby) had a real catch, and I should tell him he has the best wife ever, lucky man. Now that never happens, not to me, and I can say it was very flattering. Not a bad thing to boost the old ego hey? I accepted it too. Yes I did, with a big THANK YOU. Oh and yes ....I did pass on the man's message! 
17. My car. I am so glad I bit the bullet and went into debt for that beautiful machine. It is a dream to drive.
18. My physio. She always makes time for me, and despite her tortuous ways, she really does care for me. When I was out of work a few months ago, she even gave me a freebie. I was so shocked. She is a sweet woman. I trust her completely.
19. Friends. My friends who are there when I need a laugh, a hug, and chat, and shopping buddy, or just an ear to listen to me. I would be lost with you. You know who you are.
20. Let's see, my body. Yes even my body, it  may be a bit vintage, but I can still walk, still care for myself, well most of the time, and for now still put on my shoes and socks, and for that I am really grateful for. 
21. My Job. Even on a bad day, I still love my job, and really enjoy my customers. Yes they are mine. They come and see me, and each week they share more and more of their world with me. In just a few minutes they make my day that much brighter. I do have a few favourites, and each week it  is like a mini catch up. I look forward to it as much as they do.  

There I have so much to be happy for. It is so important to remember that, even when things look bad, and you are having a hard time. Somewhere, someone else is having a much harder time. We must always find at least one thing to be happy for each day.

Life is short. Be happy, and always be grateful. LOVE it really can heal the world.

HUGS .....